I hope I get to survive through the upcoming week with no major injuries. Sometimes I really feel like giving up but I don’t want to end my life yet. There are still so many things to look forward to; there’s more to life.

I need to get some formal shirts. Recommend me where to buy! Aha!

I’ve spent this week anticipating and craving for Sakura buffet… but the numerous changes in the training schedule foiled my plans.Argh! I thought going for the Parkway Parade Sakura after the East Coast run was a good idea since both my platoon friends and platoon 2 people could dine together. When the run was cancelled, I immediately thought of Jurong West Sakura so we could just carry on albeit at a different venue. Then… the book out timing was brought forward! …and my precious last buffet before I continue my weight losing plan became Sakae Sushi which was… Bad… =X

Okay I actually enjoyed some of the food (:

I loved the mango! It was so sweet and it masked the presence of the rice!

However, the rest of the food was either average or sucky – total waste of space in my stomach and not worth the weight I’ll gain from it. Luckily I vomitted! (oops) but I did chew the fishcake so I couldn’t see it unlike Shah’s vomit when we ate at Sembawang SC Sakae so long ago! I could still remember that scene!

Oh ya! The price also increased to $20 after 17% which makes Sakura so much more worth it. Haiz to the food but I enjoyed the company with Simon, Yuding and Weng Kin (:

I actually wanted to find out the price and time period for Marina Square Sakae supper buffet today but I’m not going to give Sakae Sushi buffet any more chances. I’ll ban it!

Meanwhile… I’m going to be serious about my diet! The gold people are coming back and I must get used to the loss of some peacefulness as soon as possible. Yeah! Do not sulk when people don’t behave how you expect them to behave but accept them for who they are! – Hard to achieve eh?

I’m so disappointed by what i’ve ate today! It’s the baked rice from Bento Box at Jurong Point. (I know I shouldn’t have even ordered that at a Japanese dining place but I really craved for cheese at that moment =P)

Well, first things first, it’s supposed to be a special set but all there was in the set was the place of rice! You call that a set?! (Haha. I actually saw the picture which displayed only the rice but the other “set meals” they sold came with some extras!)

Next, the cheese didn’t even fill up the whole plate! (Shouldn’t it? Haha.) I felt like eating fried rice with some cheese on top. For that price it’s super overpriced! If it’s served by the cookhouse I’d rather throw it away! It’s not even worth the fats and weight I gain from eating this!

I’m not gonna eat at random places that are not well established anymore.. (As much as possible…) Haha. Foodcourts are really worse, especially stalls with no accreditation from food advertising shows or some awards. (You can choose to disagree by recommending some nice places to eat HAHA.) Yeah.

No matter how trivial the above-mentioned topic was, it boils down to one thing and that’s I need to spend my money wisely! With that being said, I really hope to get a new pair of sneakers ASAP (:

Recently I’ve been getting myself physically injured. I could still remember a few weeks ago when we had to do the bridge exercise for as long as possible.

Well, I never thought of being the one to hold in that position for the longest; I actually wanted to give up within the 1st minute. However, nobody else went down then and because of that I endured longer. Longer until I realised I was one out of three left in the “competition.” I actually managed to emerge victorious but that’s not the point… I suffered from some awful injuries due to abrasion on my arm and those who are more naive actually thought I went through it just to get the reward: a can of drink. Shudders.

I’m not that budget okay!

I’m a very realistic person who more or less can predict whether I can achieve a goal or not. To me, completing that task was like challenging myself beyond my limit and I do enjoy it.

Today, I tried to avoid subsequent attempts to rock climbing because I thought I couldn’t make it. However, out of guilt, I made another attempt and during it but got myself injured again! Guess what? There was sort of a reward for completing it again. I know I didn’t complete it because of that… Though this is such a small matter, I thought it actually revealed my personality of not wanting to disappoint others and to overcome my fears. I really appreciated the encouragements I received and found myself clearing the wall to be amazing! Ah…

This post is written just to let you know a little more about me. I’m really not how you think I am on the surface. Don’t be mistaken! (:

The topic on how I interact and treat people has been bothering me for the past week. I have always wanted to be as true and sincere to my friends as possible but it seems that I may have to sacrifice my friendships with them. WHY? Hmmm… I think I contributed a lot to it. Haiz.

I never wanted to be superficial, mainly because I think I don’t meet the criteria to be one and that got to be good looks. How can you judge someone from the outside when you yourself is no better, or even worse? Of course, I can hardly deny that I’m superficial at times when choosing friends but I’m glad it’s just trivial because the friendships maintained mostly due to good 2-way communication. Ah. Sometimes I’m really appreciate that they don’t mind my looks! That probably means they are not superficial!

Though I enjoy acting such as re-enacting what has happened, I dislike cheating my friends with fake expressions or lies and so it’s hard for me to be artificial. I can’t fake laugh when I don’t find a joke funny, I can’t entertain those I dislike, I can’t pretend to be nice to them too. However, such fake actions may be needed during the initial stage of a friendship so that the friendship may develop and may turn out to be a good one. I’ll be stopping myself from forging potential friendships!

Actually, the problem don’t really lies on others but on myself.

I tend to expect too much from others; expecting them to be like me, expecting them not to be superficial or artificial, and not accepting them. I would find them disgusting when they behave that way but I’m just jealous of their surface relationships even though I don’t wish to have them. What a contradiction! I’m puzzled by my weirdness.

Next, no matter how good a friend is supposed to be, my mind generates random negative and evil thoughts about them. As soon as they are formed, I would try to shake them off but fail, and start to bitch about them. Though I don’t deny that some of those thoughts are true and inconspicuous, I’d rather be unaffected by them and look at them more positively since I’m full of flaws also.

What should I do? Drill into my mind to see the positive side of people? Keep all my thoughts to myself and not bitch about them? Learn how to entertain people ‘cos it would be required in the working world? Or remain as true as possible; avoid those I dislike and not entertain them and be emo when I’m left with no one? Argh!